Trying too hard

rebelIt’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. So, throw away your baggage and go forward. There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. That’s why you must walk so lightly. Lightly my darling…

Aldous Huxley

I spent the weekend with about twenty others in a hotel near Victoria in London. There was nothing remarkable about the location, but there was plenty that was remarkable about the experience.

“Trying too hard” is a theme that has stayed with me.

Gaia, who lead the weekend exploration, reminded us what it is like to try too hard.

I suspect most of us do it all the time. It’s exhausting. It isn’t really us. And yet feel we have no choice. It is a form of fear. We run around the hamster wheel, ever faster, to keep up with technology, the news, our work, our relationships, our financial obligations.

We feel we must fit in, or stand out, or both. Or disappear. Hiding is another way of trying too hard we learned.

What if we could discover a relaxed, calm sense of “I am enough?” Might holding ourselves in this regard, being kind and compassionate, despite what is going on around us and within us, help a little?

When we are enough and we know it deep in our bones, we start to have more positive thoughts naturally, and wonderful things can come to us, from without as well as within, we discovered.

Today I am enough.

Today I am a rebel.

Today I am writing again.

Today I am not trying too hard.

How about you?